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Knowing that my days of being an artist is nearing its end is very hard to take. But knowing how unsuccessful I have been this past half month is even more difficult to accept. I had said at the time if I had a good enough lineup of commissioners, I'll stay... Too bad I only had 1 commissioner in that run. And the only one since then. Guess I don't deserve that kind of success. Guess I haven't earned it. Oh well I suppose. I do appreciate the amount of people trying to convince me to stay but I see no point into drawing my own things when very little people are going to see them. The stats for my own work are pathetically low compared to the more superior works of more talented artists. And to top it off the last 3 people who I thought wanted a commission apparently had financial issues... What a freaking coincidence... And considering my only long streak of success for drawing things for people was free requests... Typical. And now they're saying to 'wait' for the commissioners... What do you think I've been doing all this time?! I've waited for nothing! So if I waited a while month for nothing, how will the next time be any different?! I'll wait for the exact same thing, nothing! No one is going to come. No one is interested in my work and no one ever will. I'm done being made a fool of. This past month has been some of the most stressful of my life. Work and school have gotten out of hand, I messed up on a relationship and my father has cancer. I don't know what you people trying to convince me to stay want me to do. If people have nothing to offer me, then I guess I have nothing to give in return. I must be really worthless and a waste of time to be fooled into thinking people want commissions and art from me. I'm a failure. I always have. My art is worthless even. I've been drawing with my bare fingers on my iPhone and iPad. I don't have the money for a iPad Pro, or Microsoft Surface, or a laptop to keep my privacy. I don't have the money for the art program either, making me even more screwed. And you know what else I hate hearing? That art doesn't require talent... Are you fucking kidding me?!?! Of course it involves talent!!! You need to know the right angles, shading areas and detail. I can do structure but I'll never do any of those things. I can't do shading and details correctly. I'm not good at it and no matter how much I improve, I never will be. Granted no one is good right off the bat, I'll give that. But talent is a huge part into being an artist, in my perspective. You don't have to agree with me on this, it's just something I believe. The point is I'm not good enough to be a commission artist and never will be. I have come to terms with that after all these years. So what happens now? Until October 7th, which is the month deadline, my drawing days are over. I have nothing more to give. Meanwhile, during this time I'll be posting as much work as I can, not that it'll matter or make a difference... This is my last hurrah everyone. And I want to make the most of it. I want to make one last good run... One last time.......... One last time.......

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Boman100 Featured By Owner 10 hours ago
Yeah... Id do this if it wasn't the same excuse the last 3 people said the exact same thing about their finance. I'm done being made a fool of. If people have nothing to offer me, then I guess I have nothing to give in return.
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Djjacob1954 Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2016
Do you have a bio for Cassidy?
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Boman100 Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2016
No but I could make one sometime if you like.
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TDGirlsFanForever Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hi!  Thank you for inspiring me to like body inflations besides bellies.
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Boman100 Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2016
No problem. Glad I did.
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TDGirlsFanForever Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
My favorites from you are Vacuum Inflation by Boman100  and Cassidy, the Next Tank Model! by Boman100
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Boman100 Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2016
Thanks.
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DreamyWorlds Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2016  New Deviant Professional Traditional Artist
Hewo did you want to RP
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PlumpieBombshell Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2016
Hi~hi!!!!;3c
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